The first day of 2013 began in a similar fashion as many days have begun over this winter break. I woke up on a friend's couch, patted down my pockets to make sure I had all my necessities, and battled a hangover on my way back home.
Scrolling through my timeline on Twitter, I've seen plenty of resolutions that people have for this 2013. In the past, I've always been able to scribble up some sort of trivial, longevity-lacking resolution such as "stop eating candy," which usually lasts a decent amount of time; I think I laid off Sour Patch Kids until like January 10th last year. This year I don't want to continue with the tradition of setting out half-hearted goals for change.
A lot of vacant time at home leaves a lot of room for thinking. Too much room for thinking. I've been battling with what I want from life, and really still can't come to a conclusive decision. It's hard to imagine that I'm already half-way through my Sophomore year in college; a lot of times, I feel like that same kid that would sneak out of his bedroom window and go egg cars. In hindsight, 2012 was a great year for me. I was a kid with a whole lot of ambition and love in his life. Admittedly, a lot of that has subsided as the pressure of getting good grades becomes increasingly pervasive, and my amount of free-time has dwindled.
In 2013, the only real resolve that I seek, is for something new to come into my life. I don't want to pass up on opportunities, and miss out on undiscovered rewards. As my man Hova said "I'D RATHER DIE ENORMOUS, THAN LIVE DORMANT." It's true. Musically, I want to make an album that even makes me smile. Educationally, I want to become more consumed by the things I'm learning and find real-world application for them. As a human, I want to change someone's life.
I'm excited for what this year has to offer, and I'm anxious to start making these changes. Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me throughout 2012, and I look forward to many more years with you all.
Happy new year,
-Jack
