Permanence?

Last night, after my final episode of "How I Met Your Mother," I took a pee, brushed my teeth, and climbed up into my loft. For the first time in about a year, I felt genuine homesickness. Nothing really provoked it, nothing really warranted it, and I'm not totally sure what it's significance was.

I'd be lying if I said I'm totally thrilled about being up in Moorhead. But, I've managed to stay busy enough to trick my mind into not caring. When my mom was visiting for parent weekend last Friday, I brought up the prospect of a transfer. We had a similar talk last year, resulting in a similar response to the one I got again.

"Jack, I just don't want you to transfer for the wrong reasons."

Touche.

But, after the weird homesick feeling I had last night, I'm starting to think... what would be considered an appropriate reason for wanting to transfer?

To be honest, home is awesome. Transferring to the U would make college one of the greatest experiences in my life; I have no doubt. My friends back home that are going to school in the cities are awesome, the U is extremely renowned for their business programs, and the... girls are hot (yeah, that last reason sounds dumb as I type it, too, but hey, I'm a guy).

I guess the reason I haven't been more active about pursuing this transfer is because I hate to feel like I'm quitting. "When times get tough, the tough get going," no? But at the same time, I need to be aware that I ALWAYS have options; no situation should ever be looked at is permanent and unchangeable.

I realize that this post almost directly negates everything I wrote about in the post below; but hey, I'm human--we're built on irony and contradictions.

When I close my eyes and envision where I'll be six months from now, I can't come to a definitive conclusion.

I don't know if you can pinpoint a moral to grasp from this post, but I guess, if any, it'd be to not limit yourself. Don't let your stubbornness compensate for too much of your happiness.

Whether I stay a Cobber, or turn Gopher, I don't know. But I do know that God is gonna put me on the right path, either way... so I'm chill.

Happy Tuesday sluts,

-Jack