Decisiveness

As the days pass by, the end of summer becomes more and more imminent. I'm happy for that; I think Fargo/Moorhead provides me with a lot more potential for growth than home does. When I was stuck at my register cashiering tonight, I started to think a little bit. I started to think about what I wanted from life, which is a hard concept for an indecisive kid who is considered a Junior in college, yet whose major is still up in the air. I KNOW what I want, but I also know that it will hinder my options in other aspects of my life. Personally, I love entertaining. Music is awesome, and it gives me this rush that no other areas of my existence can facilitate. I also want to start looking for some Amateur Nights at comedy houses and opportunities to get involved in acting (but NO musicals. that shit is the devil). The problem with those kind of fields is that the money is inconsistent, and it's capacity for a family life is unsure. I want a wife and kid and shit later in life, and don't want to sacrifice that plausibility. But here's the thing:

I feel like every adult out there has some sort of pipe dream that they never accomplished. Every dad has some rock band that never made it big, and every mom has some cheerleading career that got stunted due to injury. I don't wanna be like that. I don't ever want to look back and think "god, i wish i could relive those days." I want to be able to say either: a) i DID live those days, and don't want them anymore, or b) i had the opportunity to live those days, and chose a separate route, and I'm happy i did so. I'm a firm believer in the possibility of doing anything I want to with life. It doesn't come down to whether or not you were dealt the right cards, it comes down to how hard you can strive and persevere through adversity to change the momentum of the table.

The problem is time is finite. No matter how long a day may seem (tonight at Target was FUCKING long), time will always end. The end will always come. My cum will find your face. lol *it was funnier in my head* But really, you have to end up making choices. You have to come to an understanding that you don't have forever to decide; but never settle. Same goes to you hot girls out there with dudes that are going nowhere. Don't settle.

Bringing back the song of the day thing.....

"Get No Better"- Clear Soul Forces

alright, night folks

-Jack